The Terms

Hokays...So the terms are almost over...left with 1 dumb maths paper tmr...CJC timetable is quite wierd lahs...most JCs finish up on fridays and let their students have the long weekend for some kind of break...but CJ is like...finish exams the next day must go to school and study again...sian...and like the long weekend is preoccupied with thoughts of the need to do some maths...haha...Although I din get any maths done...by trying to do some today lahs...I truly suck at trigo...this morning...I was all motivated to do maths...flipped open my tutorials and picked the easiest looking trigo question...stared at it for half and hour...skipped to the next question...another half an hour...then I started to feel demoralised...I'd like to sing a song that Naggy once introduced to me...

I am in
depression...
I cant do integration
and I hate differentation!
My hair is growing whiter cos my c maths is a failure
I hate maths
I hate maths
i hate maths!

and my mind kept drifting...Maybe I should never have thought of it in the first place? I dunno...Our future is bleak...And I dun really think it will ever happen...but you know its just like a small glimmer of hope in my heart...that if I try hard enough it just might happen...but what is the probability of that? since I was talking about maths earlier... Issit truly time to give up? Or should I try harder? My mind tells me to give up...But my heart tells me to try harder...so which should I follow? Funny while i was typing this this song played as my itunes was on shuffle mode...

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

Then I thought...Is this a sign from some greater being above? Then this song played...

Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

This must be some kind of joke...